Something to be happy about.

Though the recent chain of events have been most unfortunate, I- We, should all think of happy thoughts, cheer up and listen to this song by HelloGoodBye. The words are so heartfelt and sincere, and the way he sings is so earnest my spirit just lifts as I listen to him belting out the lyrics to this sweet song.
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Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes up on yours
Thinking oh, is it love?

Oh dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh, dear, it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips onto yours
Thinking oh is it love?
*


And if listening to this doesn't put you into a happier mood then follow these steps:

Step 1: Search for a mirror within your house (or outside if you really don't mind being mocked at by the public).

Step 2: Stand in front of the mirror and brace yourself.

Step 3: Work your mouth muscles and smile.

Step 4: Hold the smile for 5 minutes and stare at your smiling face.


Dumb, but it works.
Taught by a certain superbody/somehero.
(:

P for?

Power. Pressure. Pain.

Simple things.

It's the small things that matter the most. The things in life that make us happy are simple; and they differ for everyone of us.

Thunderstorm; using the lappy.
Tanning/updating sessions with brother Ant.
Riding on the ECP overlooking Shenton Way/Singapore Flyer/whatever that is called.
Listening to waves crashing on the shores of East Coast.
Sitting in cars driven by our boys and getting lost and driving in circles and getting soooooooo scared/irritated/tickled.
Playing CS and shouting/screaming/cheering in triumph across the room.
Guitar tabs; strumming 'More Than Words'.
Singing!
Ben & Jerry's Phish Food sessions.
Listening to specific playlists and songs on the iPod.
Taking photos for the Besties' Online Shop.
Grooving to the rhythm on the dance floor with friends.
Learning 'Love Song' on the piano.
Editing work with Mummy.
Watching Gossip Girl and Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy and blahblahs.
Chatting over lunch with schoolmates.
Roaming about town watching movies and searching for suitable presents for unknown people.
Guitar heroes and Winning Eleven.
Supper trips with Bestie and random groups/gangs.
Having long, nonsensical, emotional, crappy, serious talks with Bestie.
Tom yum bei mian!
Receiving treasured messages from treasured people.


Simple things. Perfect, little simple things.(:

Unusually hard to hold on to.

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me, it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under
And you and your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me
Because I say
I won't write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or break in this

Is that why you wanted a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas
When I believe that there's a reason to
Write you a love song today
*
Love Song by Sara Bareilles.


It's so hard when she doesn't even know what she wants. She has lost the ability to feel, to really feel. There is, somehow, little to look forward to, and it has become impossible not to doubt what others say. Everything surrounding becomes more simplistic, but inside she feels more complicated than ever.

She feels a certain part of her fading with each passing day.

My name is Rain.

I like black.
Black looks good.

You crack me up, you bring my mood down, you take me high up in a capsule, then put me low on the rocks where the tide is coming in.

Everyday's different with you.(:

Too numb to love.

It's so hard to rebuild something. It's so hard to feel that same exhilaration all over again. It's so hard to look into someone's eyes and say what's supposed to be said and meant.

I just want to feel special again. Be passionate. Be optimistic. Be somebody worth feeling loved.

But what happens if I'm not worth it?

Her tears, for you.

I felt the same hurt and pain she did when I read those entries. She fell hard, only to be broken in the end. I want to say it wasn't meant to be, but I can't. I won't, 'cause if I were the one I would never have the courage to continue loving someone like she did. Continue caring like it never happened.

Why do we do this? All of us. Why do we mishandle love like this? We've abused so much.

At the end of the day, we are all afraid of feeling the same pain all over again.
Me. My other half. Her. You.

In minus thirty-six hours.

Extreme case of jitters.
Butterflies in my stomach and all that crap, yes.

The clock's ticking down every second.
Tooooo slow.
Argh.

I wonder how it's going to be like.

4 In The Morning

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause
You know I give you all of me

I'll give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
and I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down

It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?

And all I know is
You got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause
You know I give you all of me

I'll give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
and I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

And all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause
You know I give you all of me

I'll give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
and I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

High.

I want to get so high, I can't feel anything but euphoria.

When can I have that?

Dreams.

Sometimes I dream, then wake up thinking you're here.