It's not like I can

expect anything.

I need everything to
be
slowly understood.
To not make myself
go
down.
Like how I did before.
I need to listen, to observe, to sense, to feel.
I need less of actually thinking, of interpreting.
Less assumptions.
Less thoughts.
I want to be caught up in those moments.
To just be present, just there, just like that.

It's so much more beautiful that way.